Stella gets her groove back…soon!

19 Jun

i just thought it more than appropriate to drop a line and tell you that Australia has not swallowed me whole… yet!

I have been feeling really guilty for not updating you on events recently, but the truth is, if there was something thrillingly beautiful to tell you about, i’d have done so before now.

It’s a weird concept, fitting back into an old life, trying to make things new but being met with a hell of a lot of resistance. Harder than i imagined.

Luckily for me, i was literally handed a job on a silver platter the moment i got home, which has been an absolute lifesaver and really gave me a sense of having my feet planted on the ground again. (Not so much in a down to earth way as a way to stop me floating through life!!) So, i’ve just been working, and eating, and breathing, and kind of just holding on till i get my groove on! It’s amazing how much it already feels like Paris never happened yet at the same time, like a lifetime has passed.

But i’m feeling good, and feeling like things are starting to slide into place here, albeit a bit more slowly than i’d prefer! I’ve never been one for waiting.

I’m now back where i started and toying with the same ideas and dreams that i had before i decided to up and leave in the first place. I wanted to start a business, and i went to Paris to get some skills and experience. I’ve got them now, and yet i’m still too scared to jump in and begin something. The idea of going back into the corporate world and climbing my way up seemed an awesome idea when i was flat broke and hungry in Paris, but now that it’s at my fingertips? Boring!! But yet i find myself paralysed to make the jump.

It’s exciting thinking about what i can build, but then in the same breath i think about what i might lose….. freedom to travel, freedom to explore other cities and other lives. When you have your own thing, do you become kind of rooted to the spot? Could be hard for a carny like myself, or maybe the ups and downs and highs and lows of creating something for myself will satiate my desire for chaos. Here’s hoping for the latter!

With all that said though, you will be pleased (not surprised!) that i’ve already planned my next escape. I’m off to India in a few weeks!! Excited, scared, anxious, delighted – i’m feeling all of it, and best of all, there’s a big wedding and i’ll be able to catch up with some friends i left behind in the city of light.

No name will be there, and we’ll be taking a little holiday too which, i imagine, in between Delhi belly and drop toilets, will still be absolutely delightful. Now when the hell is he going to leave the pages of this blog once and for all?!

About these ads

8 Responses to “Stella gets her groove back…soon!”

  1. uigei June 19, 2011 at 7:27 pm #

    Ok then

    • Poulette Paris June 27, 2011 at 1:04 pm #

      curious…..

  2. Becky June 23, 2011 at 6:56 am #

    No you must go back! no not really, but I just started reading your blog and I love it =) Perhaps a different country?

    • Poulette Paris June 27, 2011 at 1:03 pm #

      Thanks Becky, give me a country..i go.
      I wish.

  3. M June 27, 2011 at 9:36 am #

    i have a very strong feeling that india will be a turning point. for lots of reasons :) btw, you’ll notice how i have been faithfully checking to see if you’ve written

    • Poulette Paris June 27, 2011 at 1:02 pm #

      Ha, i did notice! Hmm, i likey, a turning point! Tell me more..

  4. Tanya in Transition June 27, 2011 at 1:34 pm #

    I’ve been reading your blog in starts and fits; I’ve enjoyed every moment!

    Now, just start already. Don’t let fear immobilize you; get going. Do something! Do it. I’m pretty sure you won’t regret it. After all, you’ve been dreaming about it for a while. Plus, the rewards surely outweigh anything you “might lose”. Think of all that you stand to gain.

    Most of all, keep enjoying life. (No name will leave your blog when you decide it’s time.)

  5. Shannon July 27, 2011 at 5:28 pm #

    Hi

    I’ve just stumbled upon your post and I’m sorry that I didn’t earlier. While you’re settling into repat life, I’m settling back into expat life, after 3 years of repat life in Australia until this year. I get how hard it is – I was only beginning to settle again in Australia (after 8 years of expat life in Africa, Cuba and the UK) – before I took the decision to come here.

    Hope it’s all going well for you, anyway!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Follow

Get every new post delivered to your Inbox.

%d bloggers like this: